Hmm, see, this is really interesting, because it's interesting to me to find out the point at which people start to separate from Erik and disagree with what he does.

Disclaimer time: I live inside his head so much that I have Stockholm Syndrome for Erik, too. Because see, for me, his actions here are dictated by his fear of losing Charles, the same as he always has been. He literally cannot make a decision that might mean Charles leaves him - not only leaves him, but in Erik's mind leaves him and dies. How can he tell Charles something that might result in that? (is what Erik is thinking here.) And not listening to Charles' whisper is less about Charles and more about not wanting to listen to the thing that he, Erik, fears most - that Charles' feelings for him aren't genuine.

By the way, this doesn't mean that I disagree with you! I just love talking about this stuff, sorry 0-0

I think they're both just trapped in this terrible situation trying to make the right decisions, when all the choices they have are bad. I'm really pleased you're still enjoying it even if it is painful!